Pretend I’m Gone

In April 2013, I learned I was pregnant with Piper. I remember being overcome with joy. At that point, Neddy and I had been married two years and together for 11. We always knew we wanted to be parents, but we also wanted to be ready. We decided to wait until he...

Progression

Piper lies in the bed next to me, asleep.  The sun has slipped through the blinds, and I can see her face next to mine.  Her hair is tucked neatly under her cheek.  Her long eyelashes lay motionless like so many blades of cut grass.  Her lips are content, and soft,...

The Spectrum

Surrounding us is what can only be described as the greatest support system.  Hope and prayer are given freely and appreciated deeply.  Yet, it’s complicated.  In the same breath, I feel like the luckiest mother and also the unluckiest mother ever.  We have so much...

Day #266

Every day, questions and realizations that frighten and strengthen me enter and exit my mind like a busy train station.  As I write this, our house is filled with the sound of two little voices, singing, playing, and imagining together.  I can’t help but helplessly...

Heart Day

Valentine’s Day is just around the corner, and Piper knows it.  She calls it “Heart Day,” which is totally adorable in itself, but not half as much as her preparations for what everybody else considers to be a tertiary holiday.  Hand-crafted...